Probability

Today i had to wait for my mum for about an hour. So i was bored trying to do my economics homework- but with the amount of distractions around me i could not concentrate. So i took out my wallet and took out a 20 cent coin. I ran my fingers over its irregular surface, as i proceeded to flipped the coin mindlessly in the air.

Toss~
Catch....
Toss~
Catch...
Toss~
Catch....

I found my self repeating the same repetitive actions......



Toss~
Catch....
Toss~
Catch...
Toss~
Catch....


Until i began to ask myself questions in my head such as...

- If this is tails I miss ______ .
- If this is heads i was a terrible friend to _____ .
- If this is heads i should apologize to ______ .
- If this is tails i still have feelings for ______ .
- If this is heads it was mistake to reject ______.


When in my heart i knew the answers to these questions- I knew what they were, i knew the answer hidden deep down in my heart.
However When i was flipping the coin i always wanted it to be the opposite to what i felt.
Because i was as not happy with my answers i wanted to change them i wanted to change life. With some wishful thinking i though i could stupidly change it.

After my little flipping session i put the coin back into my wallet.... along with all those fake answers to my already-answered questions.

Life isn't Dependant on chance.
You cant make decisions by flipping a coin or rolling a dice.

You have to make the decision- and live with the ramifications.