Home Sweet home.

Today, the rain was falling around me, as the clouds covered the sky. matching my hideous mood. As i walked up the hill to school, letting all the things in the world upset me, everything from the weather to the annoyance of my old, yet reassuring school shoes. I began to avoid people i knew.friends. Just to avoid having to "pretend" everything was ok, not wanting to use the energy to smile to be happy. Everything buzzed pasted me as i felt melancholy, letting nothing effect me. Id let all the things that upset me run over and over again in my head, just so i would be more upset.

My eyes so heavy and tired, from the sleepless night before. A night filled with disturbing dreams, occurring simultaneously one after another. Then i was force to sing, something i enjoy doing, was suddenly something i hated.

I stared to the front emotion less mouthing the words, even though i knew the words, the tune, the rhythm, but i didn't even bother trying. I heard the music around me, but it sounded like white noise. Just another annoyance in my life. I was forced to mouth the words "Oh Happy day" the opposite to what i felt. Tears would fill my eyes as i would wipe them away, and blame it on my lack of sleep but i knew it wasn't that.

The day continued with much indifference, where every subject seems more boring than the next.

Until. until something changed.

Until something lifts you from that dark, dark place, where you can just slowly climb out of that ever so deep well.

So yes, i escaped that dark hole, that place of sadness, and found a new place a place with friends and love.

A place where i am determined to stay.