Day 8

 

Day 8 :)

I hope you are having fun where ever you are :)

miss you . 

:)

Maybe things will work out after all ♥.

BARGAIN!

You lonely this valentines?
Tired of being alone?
Want some company?


WELL I HAVE THE SOLUTION FOR YOU !!!!!!


HIRE LAUREN LEE :) TO BE YOUR VALENTINES :)


all it will cost you is....


TO LOVE HER WITH ALL YOUR HEART ♥.

To you :)

 Since she loves my quotes - this is dedicated to my dear beautiful friend ALICIA PENG ♥.

"Someone special is someone that is with you on special days. Someone that is absolutely extraordinary is one that is with you everyday of your life ♥. "

I see you 5 days a week, but the times im PHYSICALLY not with you- i know i can always text you, and you'll be there for me :3

Love you :)

Day 7

 

Distance = 7,357 km

Time = 20 days 

Love = ETERNAL

Sighhh didn't get to talk to you again =___= had to gym.... even though its sooo hot :/ 

Wow... now i remember why  schools crap :/

i have survived the first day :) only 154 days to go! 

MISSING YOU :)

Time to RING UP ;)

 

My newest rings <3 

Painted green just for you <3

Notice whats in the background? ;)

A certain "lauren train" and

typo clock? :) 

 

L-O-V-E 

 

IF SOMEONE BUYS ME THIS ILL LOVE YOU FOR ALL ETERNITY <3 

 

Rings + BLING

OMG MY TWO FAVORITE THINGS MUSHHHED INTO ONE! 

 

I WANT~ to infinity and beyond <3 

 

WANTWANTWANT 

Day 6

 

7,357 km to be exact.

Today you will be at Ocean Park.

And I will be at home.

7,357 km away...

thats.

7,357,000 ( seven million three hundred and fifty-seven thousand ) meters

735,700,000 (seven hundred thirty-five million and seven hundred thousand) centimeters

7,357,000,000 (seven billion three hundred and fifty-seven million) millimeters

away. 

Press our lips to one another.

Lots of my friends still have their "kissginity" to this is dedicated to you  ♥.


I thought id share a funny story i heard from a dear friend
I will tell you about her first kiss.

***

Shes at her boyfriends house, and hes sitting on the sofa,  and she is quite clumsy and trips, and by ACCIDENT knees her boyfriend in the balls. He rolls on the floor in agony.  As his girlfriend panics she tries to fan her boyfriend, and do something to ease the pain.... then *KISS*

***

heehee :3 so memorable and sweet ^___^
Thats a story she'll be telling for years.



I was having a convo with my friends about kissing... they are as follows


Friend : WHAT COME ON, hahahaha i'd laugh if you were crap at it JOKES
Me: thanksss bro for your support =___=
Friend: HAHA  anywayyyyy this is why i keep hsc, i dont mind kissing apiece of paper


HAHAHAHAHA my friends soo funny :) we'll all get together and kiss some paper sometime? ;)


Heres a wise quote for those of you who "haven't been kissed"

" But then if you like stuff up the kiss it makes to a more memorable first kiss" 

- An awesome friend of mine

Very wise words i say :3


I kinda made a list of places for first kisses i have heard from friends
♥. Boy friends house
♥. Random Street
♥. Movie cinema
♥. Some cannot remember :/

- and me.. a monorail :3

Another thing one of my friends has a "Kissing theory"
and it goes like this...


In order for a successful kiss people need similar lip dimensions and curvature.


Otherwise the person with the larger/wider lips will be like eating the persons face will smaller/narrower when they pash. Quite funny (but this is from her personal experience)

One last thing.. .. YOU PEOPLE GET OVER ORAL HERPES!
When peopel hear it thier like ewwewewwwewewewww but the reality is 7/10 people have it =____= many just show no  Symptoms  sooo CHILL its not goign to kill you :/

chuuuchuuu~
MWAHHHH~
xxx
♥.

75%

 

I hope you do  ♥.

5 days down, 15 to go :)

1/4 of the way there! ^o^ 

Day 6

 

I slept perfectly last night 

The best Ive slept in the past few days

because i went to sleep with 

Your goodnight in my mind

and 

Your spirit in my heart ♥.

 

16 to be exact.

Please come on msn soon :)

please? ^^

Ill be waiting this time  ♥.

Black swan = CRAP

Well yeah utter devastation  want describe lauren? thats the word... devastated.

BTW- DONT WATCH "BLACK SWAN" its so depressing and not worth sacrificing your time to watch girls masturbate :/  and their so skinny its gross.

Devastated .

Times like this i wish i had a time machine

FUCK FUCK FUCK
WHY AM I SO FUCKING GAY
I GOT MAQ TO WATCH THE SHITTEST MOVIE EVER
AND MISS TALKING TO YOU

When i was contemplating to go im like " what if he comes on? what if i miss talking to him"
and YEAH IM GAY AND SELFISH LIKE THAT AND CHOOSE TO GO OUT ANYWAYS TO WATCH THE CRAPEST MOST DEPRESSING MOVIE OF ALL TIME.

I COME HOME AND SEE YOUR LOST MSN MESSAGES T___T FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

Let me just die in a hole now...
Im never leaving this computer again......

You were on for 3 WHOLE HOURS AND IM NOT FREAKING HERE D:
so much i wanted to say.....
So much i wanted to hear......

» Bill Zhang. Forever. Always.` ツ « says (2:50 PM):
where are you ?

- » Bill Zhang. Forever. Always.` ツ « says (2:53 PM):
 you miss me yet you cant even be here when i come on :(

How could i do this to you..... :(

HOW could i miss talking to the one thing that i want.... THAT I NEED....

Day 5

 

DAMN STRAIGHT!

I love you HEAPPPSSSS ♥.

Never giving up then..

A day?
Make that an Hour?
How about a minute?

If only i had money :(

Dream outfit <3
 

- Ralph Lauren T-shirt
- Lee Jeans 


^___^ ill be Wearing my name ;) 

 atm i have none... GOOD WORK LAUREN!  

Give me some pointless rave!

 

Or the happiest song plays - reminding you how sad you are.

Im going to fail HSC

OMG I ALWAYS thought
"pour" was spelt "poor" =_____=

Another epic fail by lauren :/

*Closes porn site*

 

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAA or opens "my documents" 

LOL i wouldn't want my rents to see what i do on the net :/ AFTER ALL THE LINKS MAGGIE CHANG SENDS ME! "how to give a blow job" OTL ~ 

BTW DOES ANYONE KNOW WHERE YOU BUY THOSE CUTE HOODIES WITH THE ANIMAL EARS STICKING OUT OF HOOD? 

I really want one for this winter :( 

Another sleepless night

 

During the day i try to use ALL my energy

In the hope I will sleep better at night

But it never works..

I hug the toys you gave me

And think of you 

Think of us...

As i drift off into sleep...

A moment closer to when your return

When i can finally sleep

With your goodnight :) 

IM SO FINE I BLOW YOUR MIND!

 

NOTE: To people you have noticed my pupils- apparently their small like ALL THE TIME :/  BUT DONT WORRY I THINK YOU'RE VERY ATTRACTIVE ♥. 

For those of you who are NOT BILL ZHANG! You're probably dying form boredom from all my "i miss you posts"

So heres a nice break :)

I don't know if this happens to you - but it happens to me quite often...
Like you happen to have a good...
♥. Hair day
♥. Skin Day
♥. Double eyelid day
♥. Your nice clothes are all clean

And you get ready.. and look in the mirror and you're like OH DAYUM!
and in your mind you're singing the song... "Where'd you get your body from? Where'd you get your body from? I got it from my mama" hahahahahah :3 maybe thats just me......

Anyways you leave the house feeling all pretty 8) until you step out.... and see some UBERLY HOT GIRL WALK PAST!!!! and.....then you feel crap for the rest of the day..... =______=

Ah sighh :) i get over it once someone buys me ice cream ;) *hinthint*

:(

 

Lately I've had Quite a few of those ..

"OMG let me just text.....oh wait you're not here anymore :(" moments.

At at that moment I feel so alone.

But then i just write it down and rememeber that when you return youll read it :)

And im all happy again  

Day 4

27.01.11

11.04pm

Highlight of my day :)

If only it was that easy

Day 3

I would fall asleep with a text

Wake up with a text

Now you're gone....

I don't even have a need for a phone anymore...

Day 2

Every song just reminds me of how much i miss you :(

Day 1

You leave me today.

20 days.

No communication.

All i can do is pray that you are safe everyday. And you have the full overseas expereience.

Im going to miss you so so so so so much

Ill be waiting ever so patiently for the 15th of February


♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Got to love life

- I have no phone
- No fb from 4-8pm
- No Flash player ( No youtube)
- Cant install anything
- restricted to the confines of my house- grounde din other words ( where there are workmen constantly making noise)
- Mum walking in ever 30 minutes checking if im on fb/ msn
- I have $4 in my wallet

Life is good :/

Everything I do somehow Needs to be connected to "guys"....
NO MUM
YOU HAVE FORBIDDEN ME FROM SEEING THEM MY WHOLE LIFE
AND YES I DO KNOW GUYS
BUT NO
THEY DO NOT DOMINATE MY WHOLE LIFE
AND THE MORE YOU TELL ME NOT TO DO SOMETHING THE MORE IM GOING TO DO IT!
WHY ?
BECAUSE YOU NEED OT LEARN TO LET ME LIVE MY LIFE

So no just because i like jewelry with hearts doesn't make me boy obsessed...
Just because i zone out in conversations doesn't mean im thinking about guys
Just cos i like to be near my phone all the time doesn't mean i only talk to guys on my phone
Just because i msn alot doesn't mean i tlk to guys 24/7
I like to add people on fb it doesn't mean all the guys on my fb page are my boyfriend.

GIVE ME A BREAK AND LET ME LIVE

Recreate for me?

Blair: Why aren't you in Europe?
Chuck: I was in Paris, but only to get your favourite macaroons from Pierre Hermè
Blair: And Germany?
Chuck: To pick up your favourite falk stockings, you know how I adore them.
Blair: What are you doing here then?
Chuck: You were right. I was a coward running away again. Everywhere I went, you caught up with me so I have to come back.
Blair: I Wanna believe you, but I can't. You hurt me too many times.
Chuck: You can believe me this time.
Blair: Oh, that's it?
Chuck: I love you too. [they kiss]
Blair: Like, can you say it twice [they kiss again] No, I'm serious, say it twice
Chuck: I love you, I love you, that's three, four, I love you.

Utter Perfection  ♥.

balloons ♥.

 

I was kinda sad i didn't have balloons at my party :( They are so PERRRRTY 8)

Dear Mother and Father

I know you aren't going to read this. Because you don't even know i have a blog- or what a blog even is :/

I know I not the perfect daughter, im not extremely successful ot ambitious. I haven't achieved any large feats and i have questionable morals.

But i try my best for you .

Yes i lie to you A LOT 99% of the time when the issue concerning guys.
but i only do it because i don't know how you will react.
I tell you the truth for once. and you get angry on levels ive never experienced before.

And as i sit here i feels tears run down my cheeks and i ask myself why?

No its not because your yelling at me and make harsh unrealistic comments.

Its because im disappointed in you .  That you understand so little about me- your own daughter.

Im also sad that i thought i'd be free from lies. But from this the lies will continue - foreseeing the dark future

From your daughter

Lauren.

Falling into darkness

So today I was freed

I left the cage

Only to be captured again

In a smaller

darker

lonely

isolated

place.

A place without you

A place where I am no longer me.  

-------------------

So yes today was a pretty epic day for me.

A VERY epic day

I decided to tell the truth.

To escape this hole.

Only t fall in a  larger one. 

 

Inner thoughts

I used to lie in bed for hours, daydreaming of what MIGHT happen...
Now every morning i jump out of bed knowing... it WLLL happen =)

I Love You

Food for Thought

I LOVE MUSHROOMS

When i saw this i thought of you bill zhang :)

Largest deadly sin

Selfishness - Sometimes i think its the biggest human sin.

Think of the 7 deadly sins...........

Lust – to have an intense desire or need: “But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart” (Matthew 5:28).

Gluttony – excess in eating and drinking: “for drunkards and gluttons become poor, and drowsiness clothes them in rags” (Proverbs 23:21).

Greed - excessive or reprehensible acquisitiveness: “Having lost all sensitivity, they have given themselves over to sensuality so as to indulge in every kind of impurity, with a continual lust for more” (Ephesians 4:19).

Sloth – disinclined to activity or exertion: not energetic or vigorous: “The way of the sluggard is blocked with thorns, but the path of the upright is a highway” (Proverbs 15:19).

Wrath – strong vengeful anger or indignation: “A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger” (Proverbs 15:1)

Envy – painful or resentful awareness of an advantage enjoyed by another joined with a desire to possess the same advantage: “Therefore, rid yourselves of all malice and all deceit, hypocrisy, envy, and slander of every kind. Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation” (1 Peter 2:1-2).

Pride - quality or state of being proud – inordinate self esteem: “Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall” (Proverbs 16:18).

Why do we do all of these?

BECAUSE WE ARE SELFISH!

and only want to do whats best for us/ what we feel like/ what we want.

Where we selfish and are stubborn about it.

I reflected on 2010 and counted how many times ive cried
I like to think i dont cry much - but 2010 was a record for me.... 6 times

then i reflected WHY i cried.

it was because I was
- hurt
- upset
- offended
- betrayed

but it was because I FELT ALL THOSE THINGS! ME! SELFISH! crying for my own pity.

So you even cry for yourself

Thats how sad us humans are.

How do you know you love someone?

When you don't cry for yourself anymore but you cry for someone else.

Let me entertain you~

Some random pictures ive been collecting =D time to share =D

 Ngawwws <3

 LOLOL HOW CORNY >3<

 

GIMMEGIMME $___$ 

 Why so pretty?

 DARK PRINCE

 Ngawww <3

 LOVE THIS DRAMA

 I got myself a sexy pair of these ;) so difficult to take on and off D:

 SIGH

 ME WANT COOKIE =D

 Honestly after reading ALL of that - i only remember the sex :/

 I LOVE THIS GAME

 BHAHAHAHAHHAHA false hope =___=

 LOL JOKES IM A  TOASTER =D

 I hope that provided you with 3 minutes of entertainment :)