Rejection

Well this is my first time getting rejected, and I can tell you its not fun , its the feeling of helplessness where you can not do anything to change the situation and you just need to accept it the way it is.

Where all the hope and excuses that you made for yourself are crushed , where the thoughts of "never" creep into your mind.

When someone does not reciprocate your feels you have a few options :

1. Move on, Find someone new, if they don't appreciate you now, they never will.
2. Wait for them, maybe they just need time to process and appreciate you.
3. Make them jealous, Talk and flirt with everyone, show how much you are wanted by others
4. Be the best you can be, and make them realise what they missed out on
5.Be content on just being a friend
6. Wallow in sadness and buy 6 cats.

I haven't quite decided what I'm going to do yet, but all I've decided that I am not going to look for anyone else in the near future, and now I know how painful rejection is I'm just going to steer clear of men for a while.

Its like my mind wants to do all of the above at the same time, but the worst is you can't even be angry at them, because you care too much, so you sit here blaming yourself and the whole situation as the sadness eats you from the inside .


This is why I say to people , if you find someone you like and they like you back nothing should stop you from getting together, because that in itself is a very rare occurrence.

Chin up Lauren , and smile for the world.

Single life.

So I haven't blogged in a while simply because I havent had time :( I honestly cant remember the last time I stayed home ALL DAY and didnt have to study hahahaa.

It really sad so many times I come up with all these good ideas to blog about but i just dont get the time and I forget about them :(

Anyways , this blog Ive been meaning to write for a while.

So for those that know me Ive been single for nearly 3 months, while most of you are probably like pftt thats nothing ( im not disagreeing with you ) but Its the longest Ive been single in a long time, before all this dating stuff.

So the last couple of months let me reflect on my past relationships and how i see relationships now.

In my past blogs you would remember that I wanted a guy to be "lovable" while thats still true , Ive realised that relationships arent as idealistic as I had originally hoped.

I guess you could say I have "upped" my standards? simply because as much as a miss cuddling and going on dates , im quite enjoying single life, and now im just so busy, if i were to get a boyfriend I would have to sacrifice quite a lot.

1. Chivalry: While getting walked to the train station is nice, even just a concerned "text me when youre home so I know youre safe"
2. A gentleman: Always offers to pay - Now I dont mind paying at all, but they should OFFER.
3. Effort: put in effort to talk to me , or just to make me happy in general
4. Naturally easy to talk to

As I read the above criteria, i feel Its the criteria for a 15 yr old HAHAHAHA maybe I went backwards in maturity, but the main message is I want someone to TRY to put in a lot of effort.I know what its like to put ineffort and get nothing in return, so i really respect guys who put in effort, and Ill give them a decent chance

But i dont mind it if im brozoned and you dont do any of the above things hahaha



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