The NOT so sunshine state

Well so sorry for the lack of posts or any other form of communication my dearest friendlings =)

Im sorry for i ahve no credit :/ well i do but only liek $1.7, and internet is also rare in this state =____= So now im on my dads mac which is utterly gay- where fb and ebuddy do not work >.< So yes, lauren is surviving without internet (Barely) One more weeks until i get home to my baby PC <3 So i thought i'd just summarise the past few days for you =) December 22: Well that wa sa VERY hectic day =D i went to chats, then city and had a shabang with friendlings, then went to the airport to few to the SUNSHINE STATE- why they call it that iahve no diea SINCE ITS BEEN RAINING EVERYDAY! but anyways I was on the plane and there were some little kids like sitting behind me crying, and while my parents and tose around me found this annoying, i found it rather enlightening... How when babies are upset- they are so brave as they can just openly share thier emotions and feelings with complete stargers where the judgement attached does nt even bother them - just so that they can getthier message across. Over time we say we " Mature" but really do we? I belive we usr become mroe immature overtime as we hide how we feel, lie, backstab, revenege, all these ways to "indirectly" show how we feel. As i was comtemplating this complex idea i stared out the window over the nights sky with the milions of lights- we created this - human kind created this. and ti was something extrodinary i was a part of. After that i was waiting in the rain for my uncle to pick us up i was bitten by two mosquitos =___= evil vampire bugs D: December 23: I went to see my dearest friend MISS YOUJEE =) i went to her house and ate kimchi and bulgogi *drools* omgomgomgogmomg it was so nice - i thitnk im becoming fatter by the minute! The HIHO off to the city we go =) we looked around shops and stuff- and i got my sexy nike high tops <3 heehee. Then we went to see MEGAMIND! i thought it would be really crap but it wasnt bad =) i laughed out loud quite a few times ^^ I also drank YOGURT GREEN TEA from HAZEL TEA SHOP! omg ive waited A WHOLE YEAR to drink that stuff nomomnonmnomn =) sooooo yummmmyy =D and we went zoom and took sticker photos like we always do =) Then i had a sleep over at youjees house liek old times <3 December 24: Breakfast- nomnomnomnom korean pancake (let the fatness begin) and youjee introduced me to the wonderful combination of YOUGURT AND CEREAL =D And like the girsl we are we went shopping AGAIN =) did some present shopping for my lovely =)then HAD NANDOS CHIPS omg soooo yummy with periperi salt ^^ omnomnomnomn. And stayed another night at youjees ^3^ December 25: CHRISTMAS DAY Well i went to my grandmothers house for christmas- kind of a dissapointing christmas, but i relaised some poeple have never had a proper christmas so i shouldnt take my chrstamas forgranted >.<. Christmas loot: $30 coles/ myer gift card $100 cash Guess handbag <3 So we ate normal christmas food- and played mahjong as usual =D but i lost heaps :/ut i dnt mind =) Decmeber 26: BOXING DAY I went shopping with my mum and brother- omg they bought so much stuff AND GUESS WHO HAD TO CARRY IT? >.< i bought.. - 4 DIVA rings - random tshirt - french connection top And yeah =) December 27: I went to see "tron" with my brother - it was ok, the main charcter was pretty hot 0___o. AND IT WAS POURING D: the i met up with youjee and went city =) and we saw a man on the bus with a budgie on hi shoulder- and we kept saring at it as it crapped on the bus seat >.< and whent he man got off he also had a goldsih in the side pokect of his backpack >< what an animal man >.< then went MAX BRENNER nomnomnomnom i had a Whipped milk choclotae frappe it was quite yummy =) like a 5 star milkshake =D then i bought HAIR DYE =D and dyed it later that night - yes lauren now had BROWN HAIR =) ( but its pretty faint and difficult to notice FML) We stayed the night at youjees aunts house where we shared a bed YES BOYS BE JEALOUS ;) December 28: We went city AGAIN and went to see "love and other drugs" OMG LIKE BOOBIES EVERYWHERE 0______o so much sex and nudity >o< and youjee and i were awkward tutleing the whole movies - but excluding the sex part it wa s good movie =D then we zoomed again - bris has some really nice machines =D Then we went home early and youjee watched gossip girl (yes she is now addicted) why i tlked to my lovely for over 3 hours =_____= in the like past few days the call durations have increased form liek 24hrs to 34hrs :/ I wasnt until then i relaised how shy i was- like i dont think my personality is particularly shy- as i can opently tlkabout dirty dtuff with complete strangers. But when it comes to expressing feelings and stuff i realised i am quite shy :3 December 29: Im sitting at my dads mac with absolutely nothign to do =( Well there has been my lfie for the past few days ><

** note: sorry for the typing errors i ceebs editing :/

Life is a betch..

Good thing i have you bby <3

Flashback

 

Time to step back

-escape-

Go back to the way things were

And just remember who you were

So many years ago...

And what you want to be now.... 

What can be changed

What cannot

That to be improved

That to stay imperfect-ious 

Find who you love

And who loves you ~ 

It all started with "Hey"

I find sometimes i just "click" with people

Where you talk for half and hour and its like you've known them for all eternity <3

There are friends that Ive only known for maybe a few months- but i truly trust them and love them. ♥.Where i can act like a complete fool around them and not feel embarrassed
♥.Where i can tell them all my secrets and not feel violated

Where after 2 days you share all your experiences/ fears and secrets

We share this special relationship this special place..
filled with:

♥.Trust
♥.Loyalty
♥.Laughs

Today my BEAUTIFUL friend Kyla wrote me a text
 ( note some private bits are blanked out)

"Hello my dearest lauren ___ aka laulee. Since you said you were writing letters for xmas i wanted to take this opportunity to tell you how much you mean to me as a friend. This year I met this girl right? She has the highest voice i have ever heard in my life, she also has a super dirty mind and stalks a lot of people, but regardless of those weired traits of her shes pretty damn great. You have such a kind and considerate heart i don't know how that works with your dirty mind but it still works. I hope after HSC we're able to catch up on you DNMs i quite enjoy them. Where we are able to vent our deepest frustrations with each other  with boys, family and work . Gotta love how our life gives us so much trouble otherwise we would not have so much stuff to talk about. im going to miss you when you go to _____  that means i wont be able to hang out with you as much. We still need to go on that date of ours we planned don't worry we can invite _____ if you really want then he can shout you everything. Time for some words of encouragement:  You are pretty and smart. Don't let anyone compromise your ethics. I appreciate  having a  friend like you who worries as much as i do about standing up for their friends. Shows how much  you care  for our friendship. Hope one day you'll find your own  real life prince charming who will treat you to what you rightfully deserve. Im happy to say that i love you lauren ____ and i mean it ;)Im glad i moved to chelt otherwise i wouldn't have ever gotten the chance to meet such wonderful people. Some things ill truly  treasure are the memories we share."

There was so much included in this paragraph
♥. Past
♥. Present
♥. Future
♥. The good
♥. the bad
♥. the funny
♥. the not-so-funny
♥. THE LOVE
 
So here i shall share some of my memorable convos =D

 I LOVE YOU CAROLYN <3
Remember the saying "Porn makes your hair grow faster?"

 LOL YASU LOVES ASSS ;)

 AHAHA pay attention tot he end...

I NEVER ASKED FOR HIS FB!

 Stupid nerdy Asian that pwns in maths.....

 MSN.. the place where cheese fails LOLOL

 NICE...... THANKS HERPES... NICE!

NGAWWSSSS Peng so clueless =)

 I NEVER said anything ;)

HEEHEE well i hope you got some laughs from those =) to tlk to me =) whether its on...
♥. MSN
♥. Facebook
♥. Text
♥. Calling
♥. Real life

Or any other form of communication =D

Because i want tot extend our friendship and add the the already massive collection of memories we share <3

Autobiography

♥ I if text you i really do care, because every text is like painnn (50 credit a YEAR!)

♥ My spelling is as bad as a 7yr olds to get used to it ( so is my grammar)

♥ When im on msn i type so fast I my messages sometimes dont make sense, and it sounds like i have a mental disability.

♥ I am told i find nearly everyone hot =___= its not my fault i see everyones attractive qualities ;)

♥ Yes i am chinese.... NO I CANNOT SPEAK CHINESE!!! NOT MANDO NOT CANTO NOTHINGGG!!!!

♥ Apparently i have a voice so high i can attract dogs...

♥ Yes is like to "facebook" people before i meet them =)

♥ Im on msn most of my life ( tlk to me im always lonely ^_^ )

♥ I find lateness quite annoying- and i like punctuality

♥ I blush ALL the time :/

♥ I like squishy people

♥ When i say you dont "have" to do something- i really want you to do it anyways >.<

♥ When i tell you not to do something don't do it.

♥ I can make dirty connotations out of everything

♥ I feel guilty very easily

♥ You love me, ill love you back ^^

1......

Today i think Ive realised im going to be lonely for a long time~ but i really don't mind =)

This afternoon i found myself downloading pointless rave music~ with pointless lyrics with no meaning accompanied my a repetitive ostinato and heavy bass :/

Barbra Streisand
woo woo woo woo woo woo woo
woo woo woo woo woo woo woo
woo woo woo woo woo woo woo

Barbra Streisand
woo woo woo woo woo woo woo
woo woo woo woo woo woo woo
woo woo woo woo woo woo woo
woo woo woo woo woo woo woo

Barbra Streisand
woo woo woo woo woo woo woo
woo woo woo woo woo woo woo

woo woo woo woo woo woo woo
woo woo woo woo woo woo woo
woo woo woo woo woo woo woo
woo woo woo woo woo woo woo
woo woo woo woo woo woo woo
woo woo woo woo woo woo woo
woo woo woo woo woo woo woo
woo woo woo woo woo woo woo
Barbra Streisand

What pointless lyrics~

but i continue to listen to this rave music...

Because i cannot stand hearing another love song :/

So i sit here in front of my monitor bopping my head up and down to the pointless melody....

Just forgetting the world.

BLACK OPS! black whaaa?

 Here are some fb group- but my little comments below`


Boy and Girl sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G. First came love, then came marriage. then Black Ops came out and all else was forgotten.
(It may be like that for the first few weeks , but he'll come back)


Black ops, the reason every girl will be single this summer
( Well it is holidays... and it summer- perfect weather to say home and game)

Slaying pussy this summer because you're the only guy not playing Black Ops
( BHAHAHAHAHHA )

3AM. Boyfriend sends text message to his girl: "Hey babe I know you're asleep... but I just wanted you to know... I just got the BEST killstreak in Black Ops!"
(Well its kind of sweet they want to tell you about their killstreak- sharing something important with you)

if a guy text you back during dota he loves you LOL jk, he just died
(whats wrong with that? at least hes bothered)

If a guy txts u back while playing COD, he <3 u, loljk the games just loading.
(YOU CANNOT TALK UNTIL YOU'VE SEEN PEOPLE PLAY COD, im a girl and even i can't mutitask that well, your liek constantly shooting things, changing weapons, while talking to your fellow team members and text at the same time? i think we are asking for a little too much)


"Beyonce - Halo", "Jordan Sparks - Battlefield" whats next? Rhianna - COD?
( i justed lolled ^^)

If she makes you food and watches you play COD, she really loves you.
( I make food for my brother when hes playing COD - well i serve it to him...)

romeo romeo where are thou romeo...juliet shut up he's playing COD. :/
(who says COD cant be romantic?)

*******

So today im going to discuss some games~
eg:

- DOTA

- Starcraft

- WOW

- COD 

- CS

 the list goes on....

Now to begin my analysis

THE LADIES!- answer the few questions below

1. What does "WOW" stand for? 

2. Black ops is an installment of which game? 

3. What year was black ops released? 

4. What does "CS" stand for?

5. What does "COD" stand for?

(answers at the end of blog)

So how many did you ladies get right? 

4-5 (WOW LINE UP BOYS)

2-3 (hmmm :/)

1 (......)

So now, if you didn't do so well, time to step back,  is it fair that us girls always accuse guys for "dogging us for dota" when really we know nothing about it?
 and think about this... HONESTLY- be dogg guys for stuff.... to like talk to a girl friend on the phone, paint our nails, watch a drama etc....

So how is this any different?

We should let them be who they want to be- and if they love COD we have to learn to deal with it whether that means to
- love COD too
- Learn about COD
- or simply accept it

Because they accept our interest and hobbies- as we should theirs

NOTE TO THE GUYS: Dont think we are COMPLETELY clueless  ( i wrote this blog without any assistance) and explain these things to us :) so we understand why you are dogging us ^^

But i grew up with video games- mainly watching my brother/ cousin play, so im very content with watching. But in GENERAL for the female mind finds it very boring.... so unless you know we are cool with it DONT TAKE US PC !!

Anyways happy gaming <3



ANSWERS 

1. World of Warcraft

2. COD ( call of duty)

3. 2010 ( November) 
4. Counter Strike
5. Call of duty 

Permanent Mismatch

" Why do girls keep nice guys as friends, then fall in love with some jerk? "

 The story of my life- and probably of every other girl on the globe.

There is a time in life where you meet a guy thats....
♥.sweet
♥.responsible
♥.caring
♥.gentleman-like
♥.trustworthy
♥.respectful
♥.loyal

That genuinely care about you. hence you enjoy....
♥.talking tot them
♥.spending time with them
♥.sharing secrets with them

And this then flourishes into a wonderful friendship, where you.......
♥.care about them
♥.listen to them
♥.want the best for them

and finally....
♥.love them.

But there is nothing more, just pure friendship.

And you ask your self..
if only... if only i liked him.....
we are so perfect together..
He is perfect for me...
I am perfect for him.....
I love him and he loves me....

But you know nothing mores going to happen. because you will always be
"just friends"  

Then another guy comes along.......
♥. that you hardly know
♥. has no common interests with you
♥. doesn't understand you
♥. doesn't care about you
♥. doesn't trust you

and you fall for them.... fall hard....

and you ask yourself, why?

And you cling onto these feelings until something screws up and then youre....
- upset
-crying
-depressed
-lonely

who will come pick you up? but your friend...
Your boy-friend

The guy that you should be with.... but never will be....

1...2...3... SMILE *click*

Its has occurred to me that i like to take a lot of photos, even though my camera is so dodgey, and crap :/where the photo quality is crap, and ti takes ages to process a photo.

Then you would automatically think that im into photography, but this is not the case.

Pictures are magical things, allowing you to relive and event... a moment of time. Where a million emotions can be captured in one image, where an image can tell a story or experience.

I find myself on the weekend just going through my photos looking at a random albums and reliving that day, and reminiscing about the past and what had happened. Where i smile at all the stupid things we did, and immediately filled with the warmth present when those photos were taken.

Below Im just sharing a few of my photos i really like =)

Note: None of these pictures have been photoshopped =)

They may be STARS, but they dont have HEART.

Today people from JYP (Korean recruiting agency to find potential Korean singers/dancers) were snooping around the school finding potential "stars" and convincing them to audition on Sunday.

This made me think imagine  how easy life would be if you were born..
♥. Pro Singer
♥. Pro dancer
♥. Pro Actor
♥. Extremely attractive

Your life is set our for you , thats all you have to do as a living do what you love, your talent is so obvious, and these talents can get you a stable income and fame.

No stress, just dress up and perform, everyday of your life, watch people adore you,and envy your talents.

Where does this leave me?
Me...
Sitting at home.... alone..
With a crap load of homework...
A whole lot of washing to do....
My hair a mess....
In a ugly pink uniform..
Wallet with 20cents in it....

But one thing i have, is my friends, and the fact that they are my friends even though im not any of those things listed above, but they still choose to talk to me and spent time with me.

And love me more than they could ever love a celebrity  ♥.